My Recent Attitude

I want to describe why I have been in a 'rude mood' the past week or so. I have had alot of my time taken away by real world work committments and I have fallen behind on getting what I need done (for SCARTS). I rushed to get Talladega out, I haven't been able to plan as far ahead as I have in the past....in short, stress has been building for me.

When I get the time to race and stuff, I kinda am in a 'don't bother me much mood' as I want to enjoy SCARTS without the feeling of getting hounded and yelled at if I am late or if I forget to add a car, things like that. That stuff easily gets me upset and I just wish that you guys can give me a bit of space sometimes and 'try at least' to not pin me to whatever I say, such as the server 'must be up promptly' at the time I say...or the race 'must start' at 8:15 on the dot. It's annoying, really. The whole reason for the 8:15 thing is I want people to 'arrive' by then or they are refused to race if late. I am sick and tired of hearing 'start the race', or 'the clock is ticking', or we're x minutes late. It's completely uncalled for.

And I have to say, when I get stressed, my attitude takes a swing. I told Lexx once to be 'quiet' because of the complaint about the drivers meeting and almost 'bashing' me about not hosting it. And then I got very adamant about not wanting admins in the race due to the problems we had in the Phoenix race. That in the back of my mind all night got me really ticked off the entire night and I ended up insulting DerekE too much because I was ticked off about him there to spectate and worrying that Drillz would start acting up and ruin the race by chatting. I am so sorry if I offended anybody this past week over my attitude, but trust me, its my stress level with how busy I am lately that is causing my behaviour swings. Personal apologies to Lexx and DerekE most of all.

I left my admin position because I felt that DerekE abandoned our league when he built this entire site and I felt very let down by his MSN secondary name. I would never want him to feel like he isn't welcome, even though that is exactly what I portrayed to you all in the race. I didn't mean for that to sound so serious. With him gone, I felt the need to 'step back' and cool my jets some by vacating my admin position, also because I was upset with DerekE leaving.

Also my ontrack behaviour has probably gotten more aggressive lately, and its also a result of stress probably.

Again sorry to everybody offended lately. Call me 'ticked off' or a jerk, but that's not me, you know that.....at least you should after all this time. But I just don't want to admin as long as DerekE is away and upset.